Every atom of me missed her.
After two weeks…

Na puro pag-aaway, di pagkakaintindihan, bitin na oras ng pag-uusap at hindi pagkikita, Naging okay narin ang lahat sa pagitan naming dalawa. Kala ko tatagal pa yung ganoong estado namin, pero thanks God kasi binigyan niya kami ng chance para ayusin yung lumalabong relasyon namin. 

Pinuntahan ko siya kahapon. And as I saw her, parang naging okay na ang lahat bigla. pero syempre medyo pakipot muna! Nag date kami saglit sa mcdo bago umuwi sakanila. Pagkauwi sakanila, pagpasok sa room niya, inakap niya ko kagad ng mahigpit. at sa yakap na yun, ramdam na ramdam ko kung gaano niya ko namiss. she kissed me for so many times, at inaamin kong isa un sa pinaka namiss ko din. 

I cried a lot as we start talking about our relationship. hindi padin kasi naaalis sa isip ko na although kasama ko siya kahapon, pwedeng ngayon o bukas back to basic ulit. wala na ulit siyang oras sakin. hindi na ulit kami makakapag kita at usap. but it’s just a matter of trust, ika nga niya. kung magtitiwala ko, magiging okay padin kami. yung nalabas ko na lahat ng hinanakit ko sa nangyare, gumaan ng todo yung pakiramdam ko. nakakangiti na ulit ako ng walang halos kaplastikan. at ngayon? Ito sweet sweetan na ulit kami tulad ng dati. 

Tama nga, basta may hindi kayo pagkakaintindihan ng partner niyo, kung nakakaramdam kayo ng pagka cold sa isa’t isa, pag usapan niyo kagad. huwag niyo hayaang tumagal pa. kasi sa pag-uusap na yun, maaayos lahat ng issue niyo sa isa’t isa. Sa pag-uusap na yun, babalik ulit sa dati ang lahat. puno na ulit kayo ng pagmamahal. No if’s and doubt’s.

And I guest that’s one of the best thing that happened to us. As much as we trust each other sa mga panahong katulad nito, walang hindi pagkakaintindihan na hindi mareresolba agad. Mahal ko siya at mahal niya ko. Yun parin ang pinaka importante sa lahat. ♥

(Source: superayks)

Kapag galit siya sayo, asahan mong wala siyang masasabing maganda.  Asahan mo ang pabalang na pagsagot, galit na mga mata at boses at maging pagtaas ng tono ng kanyang pananalita. Hindi ka makakarinig ng mga malalambing na salita habang ganyan siya, walang I love you, kumain kana ba o ingat ha. Ihanda mo ang tenga mo sa masasakit na salita na maari niyang sabihin sayo. Dapat handa mo siyang pakinggan kung bakit siya nagkakaganyan kung kasalanan mo talaga. Huwag na huwag mo siyang tatalikuran habang nagkakaganyan siya, kung ayaw mong magkagulo kayo lalo. Tandaan mo, iba mag-isip ang galit na tao. Huwag kang sumabay sa galit niya, ibaba mo ang pride mo, makinig at itikom ang iyong bibig. Ipaliwanag mo ang mga bagay na dapat niyang malaman. Aminin ang nagawang kasalanan, humingi ng patawad hanggang sa maging okay siya ng tuluyan, iparamdam mo na sinsero ka at hindi na uulitin ang kamalian. Palawakin ang isipan at maging ang pisi ng pasensya dahil hindi madaling paamuhin ang gutom at galit na leon. Maaring tumagal ang galit ng ilang oras o araw, depende sa kung paano mo ipapaliwanag ang lahat at kung paano ka hihingi ng dispensa at patawad.

Kapag galit siya sayo, asahan mong wala siyang masasabing maganda.  Asahan mo ang pabalang na pagsagot, galit na mga mata at boses at maging pagtaas ng tono ng kanyang pananalita. Hindi ka makakarinig ng mga malalambing na salita habang ganyan siya, walang I love you, kumain kana ba o ingat ha. Ihanda mo ang tenga mo sa masasakit na salita na maari niyang sabihin sayo. Dapat handa mo siyang pakinggan kung bakit siya nagkakaganyan kung kasalanan mo talaga. Huwag na huwag mo siyang tatalikuran habang nagkakaganyan siya, kung ayaw mong magkagulo kayo lalo. Tandaan mo, iba mag-isip ang galit na tao. Huwag kang sumabay sa galit niya, ibaba mo ang pride mo, makinig at itikom ang iyong bibig. Ipaliwanag mo ang mga bagay na dapat niyang malaman. Aminin ang nagawang kasalanan, humingi ng patawad hanggang sa maging okay siya ng tuluyan, iparamdam mo na sinsero ka at hindi na uulitin ang kamalian. Palawakin ang isipan at maging ang pisi ng pasensya dahil hindi madaling paamuhin ang gutom at galit na leon. Maaring tumagal ang galit ng ilang oras o araw, depende sa kung paano mo ipapaliwanag ang lahat at kung paano ka hihingi ng dispensa at patawad.

(Source: baekebyan, via escafeism)

Some girls say they aren’t beautiful. Like hey, don’t underrate yourself just because you’re not contented with what you see in mirrors. Try to look in your own reflection without thinking you’re ugly. Try to peruse yourself without telling yourself you’re not pretty. Try to penetrate what’s inside of you, and you’ll understand what I mean.

Real boys fall for personality. And personality doesn’t always rely on the context of physical attributes. It’s just that people are created with disparate hues, but it doesn’t make you less deserving for the love you deserve.

You are beautiful. Everyone is beautiful. You are more than the reflection you see in mirrors. It’s just a virtual image, and what’s inside you is the real image. That’s it.

(Source: pilyonghari, via escafeism)

Nakakamiss pala yung feeling ng may nag-aalaga sayo. may nangangamusta kung okay lang ba ang araw mo. May nalalapitan ka sa oras na feeling mo down na down kana. May aakap sayo sa oras na feeling mo di mo na kaya. Hmm. Nakakamiss lang. Feeling ko kasi mag-isa nalang ako ngayon. Di ko na mahagilap yung taong dati lagi-laging nasa tabi ko. Ganito pala yung pakiramdam no? feeling ko bumabanda na sakin ngayon yung nagawa ko noon. Huwag lang sana mangyari yung dati. Na fall out ako sa sobrang pagka busy, tapos nagawang ma fall sa iba. Pero malaki parin ang tiwala ko sakanya. Alam kong kahit complicated ang relasyon namin ngayon dahil busy siya, may isang salita siya na hindi niya ko ipagpapalit sa iba. Na kahit magulo ang sitwasyon namin ngayon, umaasa padin akong magiging maayos din ang lahat sa pagitan naming dalawa ngayon. Sana...

Nakakamiss pala yung feeling ng may nag-aalaga sayo. may nangangamusta kung okay lang ba ang araw mo. May nalalapitan ka sa oras na feeling mo down na down kana. May aakap sayo sa oras na feeling mo di mo na kaya. Hmm. Nakakamiss lang. Feeling ko kasi mag-isa nalang ako ngayon. Di ko na mahagilap yung taong dati lagi-laging nasa tabi ko. Ganito pala yung pakiramdam no? feeling ko bumabanda na sakin ngayon yung nagawa ko noon. Huwag lang sana mangyari yung dati. Na fall out ako sa sobrang pagka busy, tapos nagawang ma fall sa iba. Pero malaki parin ang tiwala ko sakanya. Alam kong kahit complicated ang relasyon namin ngayon dahil busy siya, may isang salita siya na hindi niya ko ipagpapalit sa iba. Na kahit magulo ang sitwasyon namin ngayon, umaasa padin akong magiging maayos din ang lahat sa pagitan naming dalawa ngayon. Sana...

(Source: superayks, via escafeism)

Friends are easy to find, but true friends are the rarest kind. Friends, they can be anyone. Your neighbor, some random good stranger from the store, an innocent passerby, they could be anyone! But a true friend is hard to find. Yes, your neighbor is your friend, but are you sure he or she can keep secrets? no! A random stranger from somewhere is your friend as long as you agree on something but are you sure you agree on everything? uhm, think again. A passerby is your friend. You greet each other a good morning but are you sure he or she will be there to greet you every single day, good morning.

True friends are not required to do all these things. But a true friend should know how to keep a secret. A true friend is not required to agree on everything you say but he or she must learn how to agree that you both disagree. A true friend is not required to greet you good morning every single day but he or she will be there to make the worst day a good day. You see, anyone can be your friend, just a simple “hello” can start a friendship but true friendship is not as easy as saying hello. If you have a true friend, you’re one of the luck ones.

(Source: yourclarissafray, via escafeism)

“Everyone needs someone who would never ever give up on them even if they get too difficult to deal with sometimes. Someone who would encourage them to try new things to improve themselves, someone who would support them in any way possible. Someone who’s willing to go through hell just to be with them, someone who is selfless enough to put others first before himself/herself. We all need someone who would try to understand us even if we become unreasonable but won’t overdo it. Someone who would love us enough to choose to be with us every stinking day, someone who would just be there to listen and comfort. Now, if you don’t have this someone in your life at the moment, try being this someone for others.”

— (via escafeism)

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I’m afraid of everything now. We’ve gone to the point where the two of us is starting to fall out of love. I’m afraid we’ll soon part ways, I’m afraid you’ll leave me. I know I’m being too selfish if I say I’m hurt because I know I am not the only one hurt. I hope this pain will give us the chance to realize what we’ve been through, what we promised each other.
We changed for change is an inevitable thing. We do not send each other long and sweet messages anymore. We do not do late night conversations. We don’t usually talk ‘bout things. We aren’t sweet anymore. The two of us transformed from being the sweetest couple everyone will be envious of, to a relationship everyone is afraid to have. 
But you know what, even though you hurt me. Even though you don’t appreciate me or maybe you don’t know me anymore, I still miss you. I miss everything about you. I miss how you call me our endearments sweetly, I miss your sweet messages, your being over-protective, your kisses, I miss everything about us. I hope and pray we’ll still be together, forever.

I’m afraid of everything now. We’ve gone to the point where the two of us is starting to fall out of love. I’m afraid we’ll soon part ways, I’m afraid you’ll leave me. I know I’m being too selfish if I say I’m hurt because I know I am not the only one hurt. I hope this pain will give us the chance to realize what we’ve been through, what we promised each other.

We changed for change is an inevitable thing. We do not send each other long and sweet messages anymore. We do not do late night conversations. We don’t usually talk ‘bout things. We aren’t sweet anymore. The two of us transformed from being the sweetest couple everyone will be envious of, to a relationship everyone is afraid to have. 

But you know what, even though you hurt me. Even though you don’t appreciate me or maybe you don’t know me anymore, I still miss you. I miss everything about you. I miss how you call me our endearments sweetly, I miss your sweet messages, your being over-protective, your kisses, I miss everything about us. I hope and pray we’ll still be together, forever.

(Source: escafeism)

Tell her you love her when she is wearing her best dress on your dinner date together. Let her know that she looks so glamorous with her red lipstick on. Tell her you love her when she just got off from her bed while her hair is still frizzy and her eyes are still puffy. Let her know that she’s beautiful without any make-up on.

Tell her you love her when she is so excited telling a story about her day. Let her know that you will never get tired of listening to her no matter what she tells you. Tell her you love her when she is so angry about something or someone. Calm her down and let her know that she can vent all her rants to you if she wants to given that after it, she will feel better.

Tell her you love her whenever it is 2pm and she’s giving you the corniest joke ever. Laugh with it and make her smile even more. Tell her you love her when it is 2am and she’s breaking down because of frustrations that she has no control over. Hold her close and let her know that you will never leave her as she tries to get herself back together.

Tell her you love her whenever she’s being jealous. Let her know that others could be more beautiful than she is but they could not replace her in your life. Tell her you love her whenever she’s angry at you because of yet another fight. Say sorry and kiss her just to let her know that you won’t give up on her no matter how hard the challenges are.

Tell her you love her when she’s happy and when she’s sad. Tell her you love her when she’s sober or when she’s drunk. Tell her you love her when she’s herself and when she can’t remember who she is.

Just tell her you love her every time you get the chance and prove it all the time.

n.a., when to tell her those three little words (via escafeism)

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Another day of hope. Just stay strong. There is a reason why things did not work out the way you planned it. Because, Our dear God has his own better plans for you. Sometimes, it takes us to a painful situation to make us change are perspective on things. We can’t hide the fact that we only know God if we need something. It’s time for now to thank him, he gave us another day means another chance to change everything. Don’t take it for granted. Not now but always, thank him because he never fails to remind us that he will still be on our side no matter what we did.

Another day of hope. Just stay strong. There is a reason why things did not work out the way you planned it. Because, Our dear God has his own better plans for you. Sometimes, it takes us to a painful situation to make us change are perspective on things. We can’t hide the fact that we only know God if we need something. It’s time for now to thank him, he gave us another day means another chance to change everything. Don’t take it for granted. Not now but always, thank him because he never fails to remind us that he will still be on our side no matter what we did.

(Source: escafeism)

“Cheating is not an accident. An accident is when you fall off your bike, not when you accidentally fall into someone’s vagina.”

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