“Wala kang dapat ikahinayang sa taong ikaw ang sinayang.” —

“Don’t feel bad about not having that person in your life anymore. Don’t blame yourself for everything that had gone wrong, for everything that made you walk into separate ways. Stop making yourself look desperate and pathetic by begging him to come back. You can cry and mope and be bitter and feel the pain for a week or two, but do pick yourself up. I know that that person has made a significant impact in your life, that it would never be the same without him/her around. However, you will also get used to it. You’d tend to miss him/her a lot especially during the nights when you find it difficult to sleep. You will wonder how he/she’s doing at the moment during rainy days and you’re stuck at home, counting the raindrops on your windowpane. You would think of him/her and all your moments together when you stumble upon a photograph at the bottom of your closet when you’re cleaning it, or hear your theme song on the radio. An even greater pain will strike you during moments like those mentioned above. Cry because he left, because he/she made you feel like you’ve found forever with him/her, because that forever has ended and promises were broken. But never ever cry because you think you are not enough, that you still lacked something when in fact you’ve done everything in your power, said the most pathetic but sincere things just to make him stay. Yes, you are crying now. But one day, you’re going to smile again. It’s not really your loss; it’s his/hers. That person can easily find someone prettier, smarter and funnier than you. But he/she would have a difficult time trying to find someone who won’t give up, won’t let go, and won’t be afraid to commit to him/her only — someone like you. So dear, dry up your tears and smile. One day, you will find someone who will treat you right and love you the way you deserve to be loved. Don’t ruin yourself because you gave your all for someone who ended up hurting you. Instead prepare yourself for the new love that is on its way to find you.” — Here’s to everyone who fell in love and did everything to make it last but were still left behind.

Hindi nila ako naiintindihan. 

Bakit nila sinasabing nagpakatanga ako at nagbulag-bulagan? Bakit nila sinasabing madaling humanap ng iba na mas marami pang lalaki na hihigit sa kanya. Bakit nila sinasabing mahina ako dahil lang iniiyakan kita, dahil iniwan mo ako, na lagi nilang ipinamumukha sakin na kahit kailan hindi ako naging mag-isa sa puso mo. Kasalanan ba na magmahal ng totoo? Yung kahit anong tao ka pa, tarantado o gago, mabait o hindi, gwapo o hindi, mamahalin ka pa rin. Hindi ba nila naiintindihan na ni-minsan hindi ko tiningnan kung ano ka para masabi kong mahal kita. Hindi nila ako naiintindihan, hindi nila naiintindihan ang pagmamahal. Yung totoong pagmamahal. 

“I want a clingy partner. Someone who would spam my inbox with “where are you’s” and “are you okay’s” whenever I forget to message him. Someone who easily gets jealous with all the boys I talk to and hang out with. Someone who would give me curfews because he doesn’t want me to be out late at night. Someone who would beg me to stay when I threaten to leave. Someone who would run after me when I start to walk away. Someone who is willing to do things for me without me telling him to just because he wants me to be happy. Someone who would tell me how much he loves me and how much he is willing to give up and do for me every time I feel like letting go. Someone who has more faith in me than anybody else. Someone who won’t ever give up on me even if I am close to doing so.” — From a clingy girlfriend (via escafeism)

i never thought i was clingy until i actually had someone to be clingy to.

“and today
this boy asked me
about you
and he thought we
are still together
and he thought we
survived the fight;
i didn’t have the heart
or sense
to tell him it is
over
because for me,
us will never be
off the table” — (via escafeism)

I was backreading in my blog until I saw this particular blogpost of mine. Habang binabasa ko yun, ramdam na ramdam ko kung gaano ako kainlove habang sinusulat yun. Ramdam na ramdam ko kung gaano ako katakot na mawala siya that time.

At ayun. Ang awkward na palang basahin un lalo ngayong wala na siya sakin. Naiyak ako, honestly. Hindi ko lang talaga ineexpect na mangyayari ang bagay na to, sa panahon pang sobrang kailangan ko siya.

Ngayon, aaminin ko, di ko alam kung saan ako huhugot ng inspirasyon para makapagsulat ulit tulad ng dati. Hindi ko na alam ung feeling ng inlove kasi all this time patuloy parin akong nakikipaglaban sa sakit na pinaramdam niya.

Pero alam ko, magiging okay din ang lahat. Magagawa ko ulit magsulat tungkol sa love kahit hindi na ako inlove. Pag-aaralan ko ang bagay na yun. sana makatulong.

Anyway, hi! Stay safe everyone! :-)

Anonymous: "iniwan niya ako kasi naguguluhan na siya sa nararamdaman niya para sa akin.. 1week wala kami communication.. then pinuntahan niya ako sa bahay namin after a week, humihingi ng second chance kasi may nagawa siyang kasalanan sa akin.. at yun ay nagkaroon siya ng fling nung time na naguguluhan siya sa nararamdaman niya para sa akin.. sa tingin mo, totoo siya this time, sa paghingi niya ng second chance.. na mahal niya talaga ako.. na this time magpapakatotoo na siya? natatakot na ako masaktan eh.."

Hmm I am not the right person to answer that, but I think hindi naman po siya aamin sayo sa pagchicheat niya at hindi siya hihingi ng second chance kung hindi siya seryoso diba? Hmm. kung nagaalinlangan ka, wag mo muna ibigay ung tiwala mo. Tignan mo kung gaano siya katotoo sa mga sinasabi niya. Action speaks louder than words. It’s all up to you padin naman po. :-)

Anyway, sorry ngayon ko lang po to nabasa. busy kasi sa work. sana mabasa mo ung sagot ko. And sana nakatulong ako. Goodeve. :-)

Anonymous: "hi :) kaya mo yan.. Usap tayo minsan.. Gusto kong mapakinggan ka :)"

Hi sino ka? Pakilala ka po. Wag ka mag anon. Sorry ngayon ko lang nabasa tong message mo. sana mapansin mong, sumagot na ko. And sana next TA mo, hndi kana naka anon. :-( thank you

PRAY. He’s just around the corner. Goodevening everyone! :-)